I've been lost for quite a while within my own self, and it's pretty hard to deal with that at this point of time. All I can think about right now is being under the blankets and hibernate. I am stil sitting on my decision on whether or not I should fly from here, and I do have a feeling it will be the first time ever that I won't feel sorry for putting others in a lurch.
I have learnt so much this time round, and yes, I have realised that it never really pays being the nice, sweet one. It never really pays to try having your hand and feet into others problems to try help them out. I know deep down they appreciate these gestures, but when fingers starts pointing mindlessly towards your direction when shit happens, you'll just start to regret what you did.
Anyway, we've been filming at a really huge house for the past 2 days, and the team started having silly conversations about how and when we'll be as rich as these bastards. Zai mentioned that he'll take another 50 years to accumulate all his earnings and buy a house like that, but then in 50 years time, he'll die right after the day he buys the house...perhaps without even having to see the rooms upstairs.
As for me, I think I'll manage something like that when I've built my own soap factory someday.
